*

I fear that nothing will ever satisfy me. The pain in my chest & lump and my throat will always be there. I will always feel empty. No one will ever be enough for me & i will never be enough for anybody else.

I hate reading things that make me feel.

creature of the night,

"I am so tired.
Sometimes I feel so tired,
I can't eat, I can't sleep.
So tired."



I've been getting absolutely no sleep lately. It's starting to take it's toll on me.

Reading up on a few things..

such as this & this.

I don't understand what goes on in some people's heads. I honestly don't. The amount of fucking bigotry there is in this country amazes the hell out of me. Isn't this the 21st century? Shouldn't we be over all of this shit?! Apparently not. Apparently America is only for white, cis-gendered, jesus loving individuals.
Well, doesn't that fucking blow?

On another note! I've really been craving coffee lately & my ma won't buy anything besides decaf. Bah humbug.